reason

Hello,



I don't get how people pronounce Halo as hello. It's irritating, but I'll pronounce Call of Duty as cock of doody anytime I like. HAH! Well it's the new year and I've set my resolutions on a need to know basis. See anything about me change, it could be that. Yes, the new year is here and will bug you if it doesn't turn out good. Well, the O level results are preventing me from a good night sleep. I dread the day it is issued as I recall the mistakes I excecuted so unknowingly and knowingly. There was the A-math which I failed to finish completely, and the chinese which I have no confidence of understanding. English... I pretty much screwed it up even through days of reading sadistic essays... and writing my novel- which I still haven't finished editing!!!

Lazy ass- I set my finger on the 'r' for a while to type 'arse' but it sounds unoffensive, it's an insult to yourself- I've laid back through the holidays and have nothing to present but hardly any good change in fitness, no novel, no standard drawing, nothing... I got my wish to finally get xbox live, but it deterred me from my progressive responsibilities. I haven't drawn anything good, and I expected to display it for interviewers for my poly course if needed. I so wish that I will achieve me goal. It's all up to God, I put my trust in him during the exams, it remains now. Honestly I doubted him in the gruelling week of hardcore exam topics which crippled my spirit and confidence. So I pray that he aid me in one of my most desperate of times, pray for me too.

Novel wise. I'm 2/3 complete with my editing and will procede to continuing the story. I thanked myself for delaying the edit to brainstorm on the plot of the trilogy. It could be a 4 part trilogy. I even thought of the character's clothing and features. The main theme for these will be FIRE Fire designs are almost everywhere along with crystals. However, the agenda for the parties involved in the conflict seem weak and original. The original desire for power, there could be another motive, but I can't think of it. All I can hope for is to evolve the result of their agenda, it could be a surprise. I'm not telling.

Life matters. I choose to be a game designer and developer, I've thought all along of it with many circumstances and the stakes. My parents seem to disagree with my faithful decision, from my POV they look like they take gaming to be a wretched thing. I get pretty frustrated when they tell me to do something- yeah it's for my own good. Hell if I know, will the polytechnic accept me for gaming a lot? It may be too usual and I could encounter trouble in getting in and doing the course.

I'm ending it here. It may be a gloom new year for me. Please prray for me. Thanks!

Proverbs 3: 5-6--- Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge him, and he will direct your path.