Life Choices 2

Hey ya'll

For those whom I've asked for advice again, you'll know the situation. For those who don't check out the first part of this down belooooow.

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Okay.

Today my lecturers had me talk with them again on the confirmation of my decision. They feel worried and admitted something to me in a fashionable way of saying it without saying it.

Apparently what I learn about the individual group members of the Other group is that their GPA (grades) were around average the according to last year's results. The group leader is okay and I agree.

That worried me.

I could do a good job, but I have to depend on my members on keeping up with my standards. As I said, I would help them, but I have to depend on them to make the game right, cuz in the end, the game play is the one that wins over. The lecturers and I figured that it was possible that the members could change their mindset and strive to keep up with my standards.

I said I would take the chance and stick with the group. (PARAGON point! ^_^)

Next, they decided to have another person (that I do not know again) to join the Other group also as a 7th member. That... may sound like good news to have another member, but really, it means that this group is pretty bad to have the lecturers pick out another person to help us out!

But... When I came out and told my Initial group of my decision, I admitted that I chose to stick with the Other group. Surprised, I took the chance to state my reasons. Next, they admitted that they honestly felt bad for letting me go, and they want me back in their group.

One for all, all for one I guess.

Now... the decision is up to me...

Well fuck...

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Here's what I gotta say about the individuals.

Other group: There are one or two slackers. Their group leader is good, friendly, and organized. In secondary school I've learnt to pick out the weird ones in the class, and a three of them are basically it. I'm not gonna go into detail cuz I don't know them very well.

Initial group: Good friends and people I know. They're all pretty hardworking. The leader can be demanding, but he's a great guy to be with (He has a scholarship too). One of them can be pretty lazy, but since he's put in his role of expertise, I bet he'll be ambitious to create good work. The girls are close friends to the end, and they set a cherry mood.

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What shall be the outcome?

My focus are the roles I am assigned to, how I'm needed in the group, how the group needs me, what's the base concept of the game, and predictions if this group will fail.

Ok here's a little information on the game concepts.

Other group is planning a Role Playing Game where there will be absolutely no action at all, but will be as real as Sims set in a fantasy world where the player will do quests (WTF was my first reaction). But I began to develop ideas where this could get frikkin story and character based, so that would be the win of it.

Initial group has nothing much but a few sketches. One of which seems appealing. Block animals which can be stacked on one another to acquire a higher level. I'm not sure if that character concept would be the player, enemy, or ally. But I've once again had another Creative outburst in the train today, So I've got a sweet idea I'd like to propose with help from the Block Animals.

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The lecturers seem to have talked with my friends, and in turn my friends have told me. The lecturers were worried that I couldn't cope with the stress when dealing with the Other group. My friends talked to me a lot about the people in the Other group, how some people thought it was a stupid idea that I was joining the other group, and my friends wanted me back.

Heh... How about that...

Yeah... and now, I feel like honoring the time honored tradition in NCC

ONE FOR ALL, ALL FOR ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't think I'm gonna Leeroy Jenkins this one.

I wanna be back with the people I know. And I know there's no chance we'll fail and break up cuz after the experience of losing a member, I don't think they'll want that again. We're all pretty tight ya'know? Besides, this doesn't mean I can't do character concepts anymore! I can still draw ;) And it wouldn't hurt to learn new things like Animation and 3D modelling. Besides, I can't let my Creative Outburst Idea go to waste ;)

So lemme know what you think on this? Convince me otherwise on my somewhat rash decision.

Personally, I'm quite settled on returning to the right side of the fence. It seems harsh that I would be leaving the group and that I would probably be deemed an asshole. But hey! Nothing personal, just business. And in Business, assholes just like me just love to mess with your minds.

For my initial group, it would be personal, and I wouldn't like to be a personal type of asshole.

Life Choices

Hi,

Some of you may just be wanderin' by my blog and caught sight of this post, or I asked you to come check this post out.

I'd like to ask readers of this post for advice on a problematic decision that I have to make- now.

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The start of the situation began last week during the first week of school.

We had to form groups of 6 that will last all the way till the end of the 2 semesters (a year). Me and a group of friends formed a group of 7 (3 Guys 4 Gals). So we were asked by the lecturers to put one person in the "Danger Zone" where he/she could be taken away from the group and join another group that lacks of 6 people.

I fell in the Danger Zone (lol noob shit)

There were 3 other groups with 7 people too, and 1 group with only 5 people, so this is gonna be a survivor tryout (sorta)

Today, the lecturers decided who would join the 'other' group.

Huzzah and Hurrah! I was picked (WTF lol)

Now I'm assigned to this 'other group' for the rest of the year.

Sounds straight forward "shit happens" sorta thing m'rite? Nothing interesting here! But let's rewind shall me and enter my thoughts.

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In the group, I had the role of a Writer and Animator. I'm sure I would make an acceptable game writer. As an animator, I haven't learnt 3D animation yet so nothing is certain at that point.

Next, I was put in the Danger Zone because the writer was a relatively easy task, and 3D animation is something all of us will learn. And... I was pretty much a liability then and there. It was a difficult choice to pick who to go, so I can't be angry at my teammates.

My teammates, people I know and good friends. So I pretty much know they're skill sets and their team play. 2 of them whom I've known since the beginning of poly.

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Today, I was actually picked by the Other group. I mean they actually picked me out of 3 choices, not the lecturers. They needed an artist, so they put me as Character Concept designer and Texture Painter.

Character Concept Designer? Hell yeah... that's been another goal I've been reaching for other than being a Writer. Texture painter.... meh, whatever, I can get the job done.

But this Other group. I do not know these people very well. Like... not at all. I'm not sure of they're skill sets except one- and he's the leader. He's pretty good, likes to be the friendly guy. That's good.
I'm sure the rest are the same too.

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Here's another surprise. The lecturers (being the good and concerned people that they are), ask me to talk with them about the group change.

They ask me about my thoughts. Am I comfortable? How will I fare in my opinion? What do I think of the new group? What am I aiming for? All those psychological questions. What's more is that they give me tips. They say that the usual "Dream Team" like my initial group tend to get messed up and get douched soon enough.

I could actually see that happening to the group if things really went out of hand.

They also said that working with strangers and adapting to change is part of the industry in the future and this could be a great learning ground or me. I've figured that out last week.

After all that talk, I figured I'd stay with the new group.

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Why?

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Leave Group:

• Loyalty bond broken
• Left my 2 guy friends with each other who don't get along too well with each other when it comes down to business
• Pick up a more important role in the other group and one which I'm comfortable with
• Meet new friends
• Have a good experience to adapting to the new change
• Other group has quite an uninteresting idea unless I suggest something more advanced (but I'm not the writer)
• May be doing my initial group a favor by having one less person to worry about

Stay in Group:

• Friends I know and will be comfortable with
• Lose the experience but may get to experience group disputes
• Get back to my writing ideas and animator which will be fun indeed ^_^
• Other group will have to appoint another candidate that I dunno if they fit the artistic criterea or not, and that could mean trouble for them

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Here, I'm basically the equilizer.

If I leave, that's because of business. If I stay, that would be because of loyalty and friendship.

If I leave, I would be doing the other group good. If I stay, they might have trouble with another dude.

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It's like....

Family

You discover you're adopted by 17 and your blood parents desire your return. Would you leave your parents with your 2 brothers that you've so loved and been loved, to join a family with no other child and you would make their life way better?

BGR

You're in a relationship with this fantastic girl! But there's another love in your life, this girl is pitiful and has never had a relationship. Would you leave your girl for pitiful girl and give her hope, or would you stay with your girl and know you're gonna get it on good?

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The thing is that people don't know the future, they can only rely on predictions which are just shit. This will actually affect my experience and grades, so its a life choice.

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Any advice? I could really use them :/ It's not too late for me- I hope.

Thanks

Sponsered by the game "Dragon Age Origins" get that game if you want to experience life decisions such as this- it'll blow your mind.

BGR Think: Why do you love me?

Doing the BGR psych, it just came to mind the most heart stopping, mind freaking question for couples.

"Dear... Why do you love me?"

Seems simple?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

You may reply as such in the heat of the moment:

Guy: 'Well... because you're the prettiest girl I have ever met'

Gal: 'Then what if you meet an even prettier girl?'

Guy: 'Uh... no... c'mon! You're the one and only! I love who you are! Your personality- I can keep going on! There's just so much of you that's so special to me!'

Gal: 'So I'm one unique prize for you... you must be very proud of yourself to have gotten me to be your girlfriend.'

Guy: 'You don't sound convinced...'

Gal: 'Oh I'm convinced! I'm convinced that I'm very special- honestly, that's sweet. Thanks- THAT what I mean to you is a tool for your infinite pleasure!'

Guy: 'That is somewhat true, but you are more than a tool- Wait!- Lemme ask you this time, What am I to you?'

Gal: '....'

Guy: 'Yeah?'

Gal: '...............'

Guy: 'I'm still here?'

Gal: '.......................'

Guy: 'I'll go buy a Crappacino.'

Gal: 'WAIT!'

Guy: '-_-'

Gal: 'What you are... is obviously human (duh)... you get what I mean. What you are to me is someone who believes he can protect his girl from everything, and is willing to risk it all for her. You would take a bullet for me (I could swallow it) JUST LET ME FINISH! Dear... I'm what you hold dearest, and you're my protector. So I'm using you-'

Guy: 'And you're using me.'

Gal: 'Yes. But you didn't answer my question on WHY you love me.'

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Uh... right... I know I know, this isn't what all ya'll will say. But honestly, what would be your immediate answer to the question, and what would be your answer to the question.

Leave both your answers in the comments if you don't mind having the time to think about it.

If you figure the answer to his EPIC question (you won't win a prize) you will probably have all your problems solved for BGR like:

What am I looking for in a GF/BF?

What do I have to do for him/her to love me?

What's up with this shit?

I dunno. But it'll solve a lot of your problems, trust me, I'm still thinking!

So... seeya!

BGR Psych (WOOT!): Ladies and Gents

Heyoooo!!!

*BANG*BANG*

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I'm back! Unless you know about Borderlands then you wouldn't know what happened on the top.

I'm back (WITH A VENGANCE) uh... no.... ok. WE are back (Andrew and me) to give another BGR psychs that I've had in my mind for a whole frikkin year (dust and termites in the brain) so... my bad :)

So you wanna get on topic? I'll just start off what I thought of in the MRT

*slowly turns to gaze at the sky* (shaddup drama boy!)

Ok.

I thought of the factions of boys and girls. It's a warzone for both genders. Singles can worry about work, studies, whether you forgot something, (did you take your pills Louis?) they will still worry about BGR. You watched the movies, you're obsessed, you wanna hold and kiss someone like you never did before (like your mom... what the frak?)
-_-
Ok... but you- like me- will always think about the opposite gender. It's like war, you gotta focus on the enemy (don't get the idea that your boyfriend's the enemy 0_0) Ok bad analogy (he just watched Band of Brothers)

So uh... that's basic stuff there, so one question I asked myself was, what's the opposite gender REALLY like? (Understand the enemy) So did a little psychic trick on the girls on the train and the guys too.

Boys
Admit it, we're all sensitive now- we've loosened up cuz imaginary lady Juliet has got our hearts on a one way trip to the grave where we'll live a happily ever after. Why has this happened? (Lady Juliet and the grave thing?) Yes. It is because we find the most beautiful thing on earth besides that shiny vintage Cadillac in the driveway. And we need her sooo much! (Trophy?) Hey! Not only based on looks,

It's that time of year again!

Hey guise!

It's that time of year again!
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The 6 weeks of holiday we so rightly deserve!!!

Well actually now is the 2nd week I guess, cuz I've been busting my ass off playing Borderlands on my Xbox 360. And have not been doing anything productive at all- like NOTHING at ALL!!!

But hey, that's what holidays are for, to do what we wanna do that we can't do when it isn't the holidays.

Um... Though, I will try my best to free myself from the sin of sloth and continue with my personal projects :)

I'm trying to draw out a first look at Light's girlfriend, Kristine (The name could be changed but I have many other things I have to worry about the story and such first). And I'm holding off my writing for D-L... Sadly.

But that's because I have to consider how D-L would fit as a good game whereby people will actually enjoy good gameplay as well as storyline. Besides, I got probably 4-5 years until I have to get this done with. For the time being, the characters are a must so I'll still draw them :)

DeviantArt matters: I'm really too lazy to upload any photos but I will upload some of my works

Oh... Wish me the best for my flash revision this holidays, cuz... I'm screwed if I don't get it right this time :/

Yeah, this was just an update. For anything interesting, you just have to wait cuz I may find time for a few random psych's like on gaming, love- Speaking about that, I was considering a sort of a love story, but I'm just afraid it gets boring cuz it's always all the same!

Well! Seeya! BORDERLANDS!!!!

Yo Baby I'm Home!

NUMBER 83-THE COLE TRAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!

ahhahahahhahahahahahahhahahahah

Gotta love that hunk of meat!

Hello!

I'm back and blogging! Right now I'm feeling guilty that I'm neglecting my work, but this is just the beginning so I'd take it easy for now... :3 <--- ZOMG CUTE ANIME FACE! CURSES!

Ok... Anime the infection is spreading- I can link a pic of that for you... but now!

I have a lot of important game work to do so I'm not going to say much for this post! (It's like just the prequel to something awesome that's gonna happen!)

Yes! I almost forgot! Nearing the holidays, I delved into the psychology of art. And that's what I'm gonna write about in my next post- If I have the time for it! I've got a lotta ideas for that- artists should check this out to discover if your profession is worth while.

Next would be in the games! I already have Call Of Duty Modern Warfare 2 on the Xbox 360 so I'm kicking ass! I have yet to try out the multiplayer but it looks like a shitload of fun! (More like TEN shitloads) On the other hand, I am wishing for a lotta games (Gaming rocks! Gamer haters can go **** themselves with a giant rugby dildo!) WhaaaaT? Giant rugby dildo? Ok sick concept there dude, might as well say a huge soccerball testicle.

o_0

What.......?

ok... movin on! We have a Christmas Carol!

On the first day of Christmas, Santa gave to me BORDERLANDS
2nd day cuz I'm too lazy to type- ASSASSIN'S CREED 2
3rd day- LEFT FOR DEAD 2
4th day- 12 MONTH XBOX LIVE
5th day- DEVIANT ART DIGITAL ARTIST BAG
6th day- WACOM INTUOS 4 LARGE
7th day- NEW BETTER LAPTOP
8th day- DIGITAL ARTIST PHOTOSHOP MANUAL
9th day- MORE TIME FOR HOLIDAY
10th day- WISH I COULD SAY MORE
11th day- BUT THAT'S PRETTY MUCH IT
12th day- THANKS A LOT SANTA!!!

Well that was fun ^_^ And oh shit I wasted so much time thinking about the wishlist! Dammit!

Ok see you guys some other time!

And I didn't forget this!!!

http://maedene.deviantart.com/art/Anime-126676350

School's Up!

The Art of Life

Life is like a work of art. There are various components and a certain selection of styles that make up life. In the process of sketching, there will be slight to major mistakes, but they can be cleaned up and redrawn all the same. Life is critiqued by numerous opinions and theories. Every experience of life is different, hence the diversity between the lives of many. The work of art is only finished till the end of life. Sometimes, after we have passed, the next generation may be inspired by the art of life you have painted.

Life is an art that one should appreciate and hold dear to. An art that pleases or displeases. Life is never wrong. That is an opinion. You paint your life. It is yours to take pride in.

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Alright I stopped there cuz I think I should probably reconstruct it into a poem. It's a bit messy here.

Never been good with literature XD

I've been back in school since Monday! And so far its going swell. Getting to know the gamers around me, having assignments which can be quite easy at first, and brainstorming for ideas!

I'm pretty awesome at that :D I know I know! Self praise! It's called pride!

So nothing much D-L......... OH! I really don't know if I should do it for a 3rd year final project... Because I don't think it would be too good to do it with my lack of experience. It could be better if it comes to terms with a game company- but my lecturer says that it would be a whole lot harder to get your own game published. It's all about the F'in moneh!

BTW, D-L is a hack n' slash sort of game. An RPG.. yeah? Think Ninja Gaiden.

Yeah that's pretty much it! Well, gotta brainstorm on a new game idea as a flash game, and also one for a board game! YAY!

But I needa go sleepy sleepy zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Tetris Tranced and curse of the Mirror's Edge

Hello!

Just a random post on my life so far (it is a blog after all), not anything too important.

OH! I've finished my Light Prototypes already and have gotten some interesting replies from Nigel. I shall seek to improve it- But now, I have 1 week left to enjoy my holiday! (Less than that man) Yeah technically less, but hey! Distress!

BTW. Light Prototypes here

http://dark-shadow-light.deviantart.com/art/Light-Prototype-139480589
http://dark-shadow-light.deviantart.com/art/Light-Prototype-Poster-139482799

Recently, I've been going nuts over old game songs like Mortal Kombat theme and Tetris theme. I am really just running out of songs here (Please don't stop the music!) After I was done with Light Prototypes, I came back to my xbox 360 and played Halo 3 ODST. I played and played until I got bored! (WTF man! It was just a few weeks!) Well... Cuz I was lookin for a boring game!

Then I recalled Mirror's Edge. I wept for my scratched Mirror's Edge disc and helplessly slot it into my xbox to try but to no avail (yah pussy!) No I definetely didn't cry, but I do miss it.

Anyway! Bet you're bored listening to me.

Here's a small Mirror's Edge fan art for ya'll who love it!

http://dark-shadow-light.deviantart.com/art/Mirror-s-Edge-Off-The-Edge-140033178

I don't think I'll do a war psychology- I want a rest from that for a while. But I'm taking my time to continue with D-L! I think I may exceed 20 chapters! Not 30 though. Now I have to change character traits and their powers, as well as adding more characters in.

BTW. There's another girl in D-L who has the hots for Dark. So I have to get Light up to pace- or else you'll be seeing more of that in D-L2

Well gotta go now. OH! Before I go, here are some funny ass vids to have a look at.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PNwQLw6hfig
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qq8Uc5BFogE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GxKj_CmtHRI

Don't worry no rick rolls here! I'm not that evil :D

New Anime and my problems with anime

Hello!

I have nearly 1 week left of my holiday left so I've been taking it easy with a new anime. This new anime was introduced to me by a friend... and says it was nominated the best anime series of 2007 (It was 2007 was it?) Guess so. After finishing the anime Blood + I was feeling bored until I recalled that anime. The name was simple enough for me to remember and youtube's autosearch helped me. The name of the anime is "Code Geass" (heh! funneh name!)

It seemed like a typical anime (With the girls and Gundam). But it proved to yield a powerful philiosphy on war, and that is what caught my attention (and the fact that there were scenes where the girls exposed their assets) Hey! They were blurred anyway! (Still got the hots for them though) -_-

Well its an anime not to miss if you like mind blowing psychology! (and anime girls) I had a difficult time understanding it. And really, I just HAVE to write a psych for it! That will be coming soon.

Heh! Wanna listen to my testimony on my past with anime? If not then here is the link to the Code Geass episodes (enjoy!)

http://www.code-geass-tv.com/episodes/

Well here's my testimony anyway. As a kid, Kids Central is the TV channel I usually watch. I can remember one of the few animes were Doreamon (however u spell it), Pokemon, Digimon (mon-mon-mon-mon) and Zoids. Well there were a couple of them whose names I forgot. So I happily watched them... Then I come to realise that they were pretty lame, too cute for my liking (he had a bad childhood), or just... bullshit (anime shit!) Yeah! So I left it until now.

My liking for anime was restored when I saw Final Fantasy 7. That was during secondary 4 when I watched the animated movie. I was laughing at the big ass buster sword and gay Sephiroth (he uses sunsilk for his white shining, five foor long hair). It was slightly lame, I had to say. But I totally could NOT understand the storyline at all. Then I remembered the name Final Fantasy (I remembered it as some lame RPG game) I recalled watching a funny ass rant of FF8 on the internet. But that'll be another time.

So I went to youtube and watched the walkthrough (which was 50 episodes of 30 mins gameplay!) Yeah! Hell! I wasted so much of my time on that (youtube: the ultimate time waster) But I had to say that for a game in its time, it was a pretty great game. And I learned that characters played a major factor in stories. I was writing D-L at that time so I considered my characters (they had not much diversity) so I had to make them unique! (Iconic!) Characters are what makes stories lovable! (like Pikachu!) Screw that yellow bitch! Like Cloud! Wierd name but his hair and buster sword was an icon. (Hence! character Designing!)

So FF7 turned out, in my opinion, the best FF installment so far.

Moving on to now. I saw my friends watching a movie called "Blood: The Last Vampire" I was like 'Oh boy... Vampires again!' So there was this school girl killing demons with a katana... right... Then they were watching Blood +. When I saw all that blood, it caught my attention (Gears Of War did that to his mind) So I decided to check it out during the holidays becauseI was so friggin bored. I was transfixed on my laptop screen watching it for a week! I finished an anime series in a week! So I had to say I liked that anime.

Then back to the top of this post! I felt the need of another anime so I watched it! For 2 weeks, I watched "Code Geass". And I had to say I've never imagined an anime to be that developed in philosophy! So I'm a Halo fan watching a few suitable animes for me (that doesn't mean Naruto) That one'll give me chronic diahorrea.

So now I'm off to create my own character! I'm touching up on Light (sexual harassment!) Not that! Uh... so ... touching up on Light before I colour and shade her. I won't say she would be the final product- that's just the prototype. So I need original ideas to create an iconic character in appearance! Oh! And I've been writing D-L again.

D-L: 210 pages, 15 chapters, 66,000+ words

See yah! Oh! And wait for my other war psychology based on that of Code Geass! It will be opposing my ideal also!

Light Prototype Lineart

Heya!

GPA aside. I'm done with the lineart for Light's poster pose. The design is still a prototype but I've wanted to do a poster pose before the holidays and I had to act fast. Changes to outfit and slightly to her face. AND YES, I know her face looks friggin wierd. It must be the proportions again. But anyway you can have a better look if you visit my deviantart page.

Uh.... problem uploading it here- maybe cuz it's too large to handle- no that wasn't a joke... I don't get it either but don't even think. Just check it out from the link below please.

http://dark-shadow-light.deviantart.com/art/Light-prototype-lineart-138725505

Please comment ^_^